I know how much time and energy this forum can take and I am working on getting some balance on that. Like you said we need to take care of ourselves and our priorities. And I am really feeling that too.
At some point, I would like to invite you to a cyber retreat for the purpose of talking about the word of faith movement. Whenever we hate anything, it is a real hurt to us. There is good and bad in everything, and the internet is really good at making things black and white. Hate will keep you from healing. Hate will keep you from fulfilling gods plan. It is a strong hold in your life. I have strongholds too and maybe someday someone can take me ona cyber retreat for a few hours or a few days or whatever to help me with that. Mine is trusting the Lord. I'm fragile there. The enemy will keep trying to keep you in this, so don't be surprised if you get even more confirmation of your feelings. You need some holding around this. If not me then maybe an elder, or minister. That would be really great cause in person is really good.
By cyber retreat I mean a set time and day when we commit to private message each other back and forth. We can refer each other to web sites or video/audio files to review. Having something be not your cup of tea is okay but hating hurts you.
For all of us the enemy we need to fight is the one within far more than the one in the world.
I'm just not willing yet to give up getting you free of hate.
This is probably a really threatening idea. I know you want to stand up now to things you were once powerless over. But it is keeping it alive and I am afraid it will eat you alive. Its blocking me from seeing the real you at times. And I hunger to see you. Whats important to you and what your learning. What is challenging, and what is working and going easy for you that i can emulate.
Can we do an hour long retreat someday next week. We will use I statements. I statements make it just my opinion and you get to have your opinion matter too. or maybe friday this week.
I can't fix the problems between you and refreshed. That is something you will have to take to God and ask him to help you work through. I imagine you are both hurt. I can't get in the middle of that. Its just too triggering for me.
There are teachers who are so beautiful, I know that you would love them. David Hess at Christ Community Church is one. He is just so in love with Jesus and Father God.
Well, we are each on our journey and sometimes we need to go it alone. I can see how this forum has been hurtful to us all. I can also see how it has been a blessing. So if I dont hear from you today may God be with you as you take care of your priorities.