My family, all of my life, has been abusive to me, unsympathetic, incredibly critical to the point of humilation in front of many, and just plain cruel. What I want out of life is irrelivant, because of my condition I am completely dependant upon them and they make no bones about their resentment. I am alone in the care I must give myself. Money is rationed so I can't even care for myself as I want to. It's a long story with more explaination than I want to give but unless I get better I can't get away from them and unless I get away from them I fear I'll never get better. My head and heart are just in a very dark and hopeless place. I thank you for your information, very much. Maybe if I cry someone will feel enough pity for me to go get me a sitz bath at the drug store.