Being new in the game I was an easy prey for doctors and the like. After a while I realised that I was just getting sicker and sicker every time and they didn't have a solution for me.
Naive as I was I told them the fact that I needed other kind of treatments/solutions and even starting given them some ideas I was learning, reading…
You can imagine their reaction, they were furious at me. Every appointment ended in a fight. In one occasion one of those professionals told me literally to get out of her office. She rejected to treat me: GET OUT OF HERE!!! She shouted at me.
THAT WAS GREAT!!! That was the turning point in my disease story. I needed that to see what was happening. I needed that to GET THE POINT.
The point was that I was running out of time, energy and money and the very small portion I had of any of those PRECIOUS things I was giving it to them.
No only to them, but to the friends and family too. They were also tired of my story of not getting any help and being every time sicker and sicker. They starting withdrawing too.
THAT WAS ALSO A BIG HELP.
Because I really GOT THE POINT: I REALLY didn’t have much extra energy, time or money anymore to spend in anybody or anything apart from ME and my getting healthier.
And that is what I did: I stopped every single fight, justification, explanation, etc.
I DID’T have much TIME/ENERGY/MONEY left for it, I was at the bottom.
And I devoted my last bits of energy silently to myself, as MH says: Making no waves.
Now I'm strong and relatively quite healthy and I could give a good fight, but then I don't do it because… something in me reminds me.