yeah i understand you..
its hard to live like this seeing your old friends in there happy life while you still suffering in this pain..
I've lost most of my friends coz when i noticed that i smell i avoided them and I'm not hanging out with them anymore so we lose our communication.
i know that someday we all get cured and we will become happy like normal people do..
we will not suffer from this problem from the rest of our life(well i hope so)
well we have to wait when that time comes, but for now we have to fight from this problem..
my mom says that lord wont give you a problem if he knows that you cant solved it..
what doesn't kill us make us stronger!!