because when we learn and experience... god learns and experiences, we are one and the same... yes the all-knowing god learns.
we are each but 1 drop in the river of life, ever flowing back towards the one, the one ocean.
seeing yourself as seperate from this ocean, or god as you call it, makes you sad, angry, and full of pain. This is understandable, we all long to be back once again in the arms of our long lost lover, do not fear, we will be.
Your pain, your anger, and your longing, this surely is a sign (and a doorway) to your un-broken connection with the one, the one which you know, and have always known, from the depths of your heart.