The brain fog is permanent. Always has been. I've never known what its like to truly be alive. Like I said, I don't even recognise my own reflection.
Yes I am always exhausted. But also jittery/anxious.
When its warm, I feel like I will faint. My eyes almost close from fatigue and my stomach becomes very hot and irritant. I hate heat. I try to always sleep near a open window. I prefer low temperatures as I become more jittery and feel like I want to move around a little more.
I hate bright lights also. I see black floaters in my vision and my eyes hurt as well as finding it very difficult not to close my eyes completely when its a sunny day or bright.
All this has completely ruined my life. I just want to know what it feels like to be me. To be someone. A living breathing person. :'(((((((((((((((