Published: 10 years ago
Re: why I'm i not dead yet?
Yes that's it - life is passing by. I've spent the last 4 years basically in my room, why should that change all of a sudden? Oh because I'm a human being too who needs love and friends and social interaction sorry apparently God has chosen that I'm not worthy of it. If the best years of my life have passed by what do I need to live for anymore? To hope that one day at 58 I'll be able to live together with people who are just wicked to their core who've humiliated and disrespected me my whole life? No thanks.
I'm tired of looking for an answer to something other people are given for free and don't even know what they got, who can eat and drink whatever the f*** they want, not shower in a week but smell great and spend time with people and live their life to the fullest, who never have to think twice about leaving their house, who don't have panic attacks whenever someone comes towards them on the street, who have so much self-confidence that they even dare to insult other people and make fun of them. Who are so lucky to be in the position to exchange glances when someone smelly is next to them because for god's sake don't these people know how to use a shower ?!
is a living hell, I'd rather be paralyzed, have cancer and aids because at least people would still spend time with you, I'd rather had a couple of months of normal life than a lifetime of this abomination. I hate how everyone on here tries to give you hope like "don't stop believing - I've lived with this for 30 years" yeah this is not helping it's only reassuring me of the never-ending curse of Body Odor
. I couldn't think of anything worse than a condition were you are excluded from society, don't receive help from doctors, are made fun of daily, are deemed unhygienic for no reason, are held back by something that you don't even notice yourself but you have to adjust to the stigma of a smelly person - alone, depressed, weirdo. This is the stuff nightmares are made of.