yeah its like a cycle that never ends. Its a big tease to go from feeling like you'll make it and grow and change for the better, put in a lot of effort to feeling completely worthless, drained and depressed... Its a good thing were still young, but those years go by fast and im afraid if i dont do something soon, some of my best years of my life will pass me by and ill hit the 30's still with no experience and progress. Im going to keep trying for the best, knowing summer is on the rise its keeping me optimistic. thanks i hope the best for you too and everyone else reading! We can do it!