All my life i have felt that there was someone or let me say some energy with me and it has always been there and i know that.And even at the depths that is what keeps me here.Its something telling me it will be alright and i listen to that.Now i have got down but not out and i am making some rash decisions at the mo that are quite scary for me but i suppose deep down i know there is something.That ingrained belief keeps me here i think if i ever lost that feeling or belief i would no longer be here.