I never thought that I'd see the day I wished I had cancer. Today is that day. This is going to kill me. I've run out of options. I've got kids, so I can't get so sick that I can't function, and thats what the meds were doing to me. I've made up my mind..I'm going to die from this. I am just going to be happy if I wake up every day, and prepare for what is coming.