Bless, you are heard and loved, both by this fellow christian and our Father and creator <3
I have struggled with sexual sin too-
I have found in my walk with the Holy Spirit that what He desires is a will to turn away from the sin (180 degrees) and a contrite heart..
After those moments (sometimes it is tears in prayer) there is comfort and complete guidance.
May you ever grow nearer to the pure love and intimacy that is our Father, the person of Jesus our king, and the gentle power and guide (and sometimes mothering, correcting and persistant person!) of the Holy Spirit.