Probably nothing to do with your obviously bad childhood. (You don't become such a unpleasant bully type person from a loving home) No, it was ALLL the fungus's fault. Denial is a wonderful thing.
My double masters is in system counseling. I've seen this kind of 'blame anything but your parents' subterfuge many times before. Maybe instead, you go get therapy, not just read a book or kill a fungus.
And at least you've quit with that fake 'barely speak english' thing. You really were quite bad at it.