Oh wow! Very interesting and points to more research that I need to do before coming to a proper diagnosis. Ugggh! Exhausting!
I want to mad at someone. I want to blame someone for all of this. I know there's noone I can blame and I dont always feel like this but today is one of those days. My life is completely upside down from this and has been for some time now.
As much as I hate to admit it, I'm pretty scared and I have pretty much noone to help me figure this out. I could exhaust myself with more doctors but honestly, I don't have it in me to deal and pay for the service of someone who is most likely not competent enough to deal with my case. Their arrogance disgusts me sometimes. What an eye opener though! To realize the confidence that I once had in modern medicine was completely false.
My friends and family are not capable of understanding. I don't blame them. They're scared too. They'd rather not even think of such things. I cant burden them with this.