I am totally with you....I feel like such crap that when I drink it gives me time that I'm not having to deal with this pain I constantly have. I know that I should not drink this much but right now life's events preclude me to not being strong enough. Not only do I deal with this illness, but I have a 15 year old teenage daughter that is rebellious, an a-hole ex husband, and family members that I have to deal with, at least for another 3 years, and this is what gives me solace. I tried vodka back in December, and thats when I got pneumonia and real sick and that is when all of these parasite issues beared their ugly heads, so I got off the wine. Maybe I should try it again? If so, what is something low cal that mixes good with it? Sorry, not trying to turn this into an alcoholism page, but we all have our ways to deal with things. I havent given up, but this is the only bad Sugar in my diet right now. Also, I used to drink aloe vera juice to help the cramping and grumbling in my stomach but stopped about 2 months ago, should I start that again? I ate pineapple this morning and had the worst day so far in several weeks. My naturalist doctor seems to think the parasites are gone, but what I see coming out is definitely candida.