I am kinda getting to enjoy our talking now that we are not debating so much!I think me and you have control the forum for the last 30min or so! hehe! They are probably thinking I sure wish that Bible thumping chic would get off! Can't get rid of me that easily. I am sorta stubborn since birth actually. My mom said I was strongwilled. Shes right! I am probably alot older than you. I'm 41 and feel older sometimes! I got saved when I was 16. I walked with the Lord faithfully for 3 years and then fall away. I went back into the world and screwed up my life again. I didn't mean to walk away I was lie to by a friend who didn't know she was lieing. I know you thinking " What that makes no sense but she introduced me to a boy that she thought was christian." He wasnt. I didn't know he acted like it for a long time but he drank, did drugs. He got me doing everything. I was away from the Lord for quite awhile till I came to my senses kinda like the prodical son.I spent alot time in regret and guilt and you name it. I have had it really rough in many ways. I went through alot so to speak. Somehow God kept me alive, I don't know how but he did. I was awake one night and God gave me a vision. I saw 3 crosses and the one in the middle was lit up. I know what it was. God was showing me he was real and Jesus was real and I know he did that because my faith in many years to come would be tried . And boy has it. On the inside their is something that won't let me give up no matter what.I went through a time I didn't think God loved me but he made sure he spoke to me before I backslide. I heard just like if you were here talking to me right now. He was trying to protect me for what I would soon face. I know he is the way I have known it even before I was saved somehow!! Its been a uphill climb , life is not a bed of rosy unlike what I use to think but he is always there!! I know I will soon have to get off here and go to bed.