I too have suffered from eating disorders and am here to tell you that you will end the vicious cycle as I did. One place you may start is Flower essences or Emotional essences.
I hope that you find some comfort and peace through the use of these products:
Introducing Bach Essences, These flower homeopathic essences help to balance some underlying emotions and habits. This may bbe very useful when erradicating an addiction.
here are some examples.
AGRIMONY- For those who hide their troubles from themselves and others, making light of inner difficulties and rarely burdening others with them. They avoid arguments and confrontations. They will avoid being alone, and may use alcohol, drugs, food, or work to escape their pain. Teaches honesty about feelings and the ability to express them.
HORNBEAM- For the feeling (often experienced upon waking) that one doesn't have the strength to get through the normal activities of the day. Teaches mental liveliness and alertness, an enthusiasm for life.
PINE- For those who are never satisfied with themselves and blame themselves for not doing better. For people who suffer from guilt and will even blame themselves for others' mistakes. Teaches self-acceptance and the replacement of guilt with regret.
WILD OAT- For people who want to accomplish something in their lives, but who have no clear sense of purpose. They feel dissatisfied and uncertain. Teaches focus and direction.
WATER VIOLET- For those who are independent, loners, sometimes proud and aloof. This essence teaches them to interact with others without sacrificing their independence
WRMLV-- For the relief of symptoms related to painful emotional attachments and heartaches, desire to run away. Indifference to loved ones and desire for solitude.
ANGR-FLX-- For the relief of symptoms related to anger, frustration, inflexibility, stubbornness, and impatience, unforgiveness and harshness.
MND-MMRY-- For the relief of symptoms related to grief, shock, disappointments, loss of confidence, fear, and other effects of childhood abuse. Helps relieve resistance to confronting emotional difficulties of the past or present