More people than ever are battling Eating Disorders, including older woman and men. Its almost everwhere you turn. Everyone aspires to look good, but eating disorders really come from a much deeper place. A dark place that no one wants to visit. Many of us feel some sense of accomplishment and 'high' when we are able to purge this food from our body or refrain from eating it.
What if anything, have you learned about yourself from this disorder? Is there a lesson in all this?
I have had many types of ED's since age 13. I think that it started with my x- prima ballerina grandmother calling me fat to my face and to my parents quite often. Also I believe my father has an eating disorder. Although he is hyperthyroid, he binged on sweets quite often when I was young. So, I learned some bad eating habits and shame for not being stick thin.
But is that really the reason? I still am not sure.
Anyway, How are all of you doing?
How is your recovery and progression through this disease...
I feel sometimes like I am two people fighting against eachother. One trying to move foward, the other trying to bring me back to my old ways.