But is the loneliness what causes you to seek comfort from the disorder? If so, then maybe you might want to consider going to college at a place near to your hometown where you can see your family and still have the independance of going to college. Your body needs food- and fasting is ok- but for a few days at a time. The muscles weaken when they dont have food and your heart is a muscle, your brain needs fat to function!!! Confront the feelings that are causing you to have the disease. Why are you so uncomfortable that you need this disease to keep you comforted? If your body doesn't get the proper nutrition you could die, or suffer chronic disease- which I have and has ruined my life. You can still save yours though.