Re: first bc.............eeeeeekkkk!!!!!!!

thank you for the post. i will gradually increase my doses.

re: goals. you are absolutely right. my goals are to improve overall quality of life. first and foremost.

in 1997 my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. she died in 1998. it was devastating. such a enlightend, wonderful, person destroyed by cancer. since then ive struggled with Depression and completely lost the willpower to take care of or nurture myself. my diet sucked. i started smoking again. stopped working out in any regular fashion. started to drink heavily ect. i feel completely toxic. i feel sick. lacluster. no energy, no spark, no enthusiasm ect. enough is enough. i want a clean healthy body. i want a clear mind. i want my quality of life back. i want wholeness. for me, my wife, my daughter. they deserve my best. i feel poisoned. i want to enjoy life again, be active, be healthy. feel good. its been so long since ive felt good.

it will not happen overnight. i know this. like my mother always told me.."anything worth having takes time and effort" Tweet