I am 20 years old and a year and a half ago I got epstein barr. After that I got progressively tired to the point where I could no longer work and had to drop out of college. Then last year on june 11th a brainfog hit me that I have not been able to get rid of. I have felt high like on cocaine every day since. I have not had one day without it since JUNE OF LAST YEAR. I have done 11 liver cleanses, candida cleanses, parastie cleanses, bowel cleanses, followed a vegan diet, taken herbs up the wazooo and nothing has lessened the fog- not one bit! In December I started getting way worse each day and started getting panick attacks being in the car and in large crowds. In February I got accupuncture done and it must have upset the balance in my body because an hour after I almost fainted and that night I had my first psychotic episode. Its like something is possessing me. Ever since then my blood pressure has been low and I have gone into a depression because of the psychotic episode. I am 20 years old and a year ago I was sooo normal having the time of my life at college studying premed and NOW I'm psychotic??? What is going on here. I feel like I don't know my family, I feel scared around them and my friends and my pets!! Its nuts!!! I have violent thoughts running through my head and I am soo not a violent person and I am so depressed because of it. I feel hopeless because I have tried everything and I nothing has worked. I started liver cleansing herbs from my chiro and they are making me so psychotic that I can't take it. I am scared of hurting myself or someone else because I feel like I don't have control over my brain anymore. I think the epstein barr virus is messing up my central nervous system. I have even done raw foods diets and gerson therapy and nothing helped. I have had heavy metal testing done and it came back normal. Today I am probally going into the psych ward because I have too much love in my heart to see me hurt myself or someone else. I was so peacefull, so happy before. I am 20 years old, and I feel like my life has been taken from me. Like i've been possessed by some psycho and they won't come out of me. I have done numerous things, even exorcisms and nothing helped- and now I have to resort to drugs, and throw away all the cleansing I have done to better my body. I was just getting better from 4 years of bulimia when the epstein barr hit me. I have prayed so much and have so many people praying for me- I feel stranded by God. I don't know what to do and I am scared out of my mind. What should I do Andreas? Will I ever lead a normal life again?