Boy, you sound like the most determined person I have heard from in a long time. You can beat this---I know you can!
If you haven't already done so, please check out Dr. Richard Schulze . 1-800-herb-doc and request a catalog. You will receive his newsletters, too. He has a wonderful set of videos on cancer you could learn from, too.
Just know that I am behind you 100% and will be checking on your progress. Prayers will be going up for you, too.