I was reading what you said about loving the rest of your life
wanting something that you crave and don't get it. Well, I was
dating a guy once who only liked oral sex given on him.I
couldn't stay with him (we talked about marriage). All I wanted
was straight sex sometimes and maybe oral on me, but he would start and then wouldn't finish or just ask for me to give.
I HATED IT. I would catch headaches on the nights I was to
go over and I never really knew why. Then it dawned on me that
I would be asked to do something I really didn't want to do,
all the time. I just had to break up with him knowing that's
how my life would be with him. Just ask yourself, if it's
something you COULD live with.