Good girl my advice to you is learn how to relax I sense you are pushing too hard emotionally.In some of your posts you mention concerns about giving you guy a proper blow job and in another post being self conscious about your body.I sense you are a true loving giving girl and your guy is luckey to have you.Good girl just relax a little and do not focus on what you imagine are concerns on these issues.For a girl being concerned about pleasing her guy is normal and being self conscious about your body is normal too.I am newly married and was a virgin so you know I did not do things no where near perfectly.I am a college swimmer and almost daily I am nude in the showers and locker room surrounded by my nude swim mates.Yea I am shy about my body too but had to get quickly over that.Good girl sense you lack self confidence in your self and yes too critical of your self too.Plan your next love making in advance, take a warm bath, have your guy rub you down with perfumed oils. Have a few large glasses of wine. Whoa said wine or a favorite alcohol drink not dope. There are breathing relaxing exercises you can do also.Good girl you are okay just chill on your over focus on what you think are weaknesses in you. Gee if you want email me at Dennyoooo@webtv.net I will give you decent feedback. Love.