You sound like a nice, nice gal so just roll with the punches on the following comments...I'm a good guy...really. Married women typically lose sexual lust along the way. Normal married life. Wish it weren't so, but it is. Call it stress, the kids, dinner needs, house is a mess, or in your case...depression. Maybe, just maybe there's no real "cure" for all the millions of asexual women out there. You can't take a pill and become horny. You can't read a book and magically want to "69" your husband. What you can do is to become content with the fact that you just aren't a sexual person OR just do it for the sake of pleasing him. Your choice. You don't want it for whatever reason. He needs it for whatever reason. Maybe a face-to-face with a female medical doctor is in order. That would be a good starting point. Chances are that this is how you're hotwired. You're not alone, trust me...your libido was there at one time...