I am wondering if you are over your ex who you said did it all time. What was reason for getting out of that relationship? Having been married for many years to a spouse who does not like to give or receive OS I can tell you it is a constant reminder that she is not fully giving herself to our relationship. I can only imagine how a great a marriage would be if both fully gave themself to the other. If you are in position to find a relationship where that is possible, I think you would benefit looking for it.