LOVE

Rudenski...it sounds to me that it is *your* addictions and some sort of guilt that is permeating your belief system. After meeting this Being of LOVE how can you believe that the physical world is an awful sinful place? (I think you still have personal demons) Are we not here to experience ourselves through the physical/material world? According to my belief system....all beings/entities of consciousness don't choose to become physical to learn their lessons. Why all the 'evil'? Isn't it just fear and ignorance? Aren't we all at different stages of growth and development? The body is beautiful? Sex is beautiful when it brings you joy, love, affection....When something wonderful is created by the two people involved. It all depends on what it brings to your life - just like anything. I just don't understand this 'sinful body/material world' thing. We are here in this beautiful land...having physical bodies for a limited amount of time...I'm sure the 'Creator' 'God' or 'All that is' desires us to learn through joy and enjoy all the beauty available in this solid place we call Earth. Imagine that this is your last life here...look around...soak it all up. Get nostalgia for the material world...things won't be this solid forever!

I believe we're learning to HOLD our energy. Realize who we are. (while learning many lessons and gaining experience in all realms) So that when we're not physical some day...we'll be able to use the energy available to Guide others in different realms, Teach others, be part of the Healing energy available.....We keep learning for all eternity! Then become a part of a "bigger" thing....a gestalt of consciousness...ad infinitum. As Jean Houston says, "We're in God school, learning to become co-creators."

This sin stuff is just Fear!

LIVE.

If it feels good and creates that overflowing love feeling that you speak about it IS good. Try to keep the stuff that doesn't make you feel that way to a minimum but don't get hung up on it and beat yourself up about it. That does too much damage. Make a Choice. It's all about Choice.

You said yourself that the experiences that aren't about Love, Nature and Relationships just dissolves....so why put so much energy into thinking about some of this 'evil/sin' stuff? Clear it out and you'll see the Love will flow much more easily. Doesn't this God that you met want this for you?

When you say that you can feel that God is not looking at you (when you're not being perfect) are you sure it's not your own guilt/fear that is putting the barrier up between you and God?

Energy follows Thought...

Just thought I'd share part of my belief system with you...

T