As I stood before this courtbench, I sensed the being above me. I was looking down, because if I looked up, I would die in my body. I didn't really understand that concept at the time though. I just figured this orb of light that was standing behind had my best interest at heart so I kept my eyes directed down. I understand now that if I looked up into the eyes of this glorious being, I would not have desired to return to my smashed and broken body. My body was in a dire and precarious condition. My neck was fractured as my convertable MG was rolling over and over in the material world. I believe I died by the time the tiny car I was driving had rolled on top of me for the third time.
This being I called "God" was above me in this majestic Supreme Court Room and brought my "Life Review" back to my attention. Although I did not look up, I sensed these other beings on either side of this being I called "God." I also sensed two beings floating above the being I called "God." "God" does not accurately depict who this being was. But now I know that there is a lot to learn even in heaven. This being was as you said, "Perfect Love." I have begun calling this being "Yah" in the last several years. I intuited that I was supposed to respond to my life. I said,
"Thank you 'God' for my life." ... " I had a wonderful life." In my life-review I called up memories of my mother and grandmother...I called up memories of playing with childhood friends.... I called up the memory of fishing with my grandfather....all of my life...all of the million ways I had been blessed...I saw hundreds of sunrises and sunsets. I felt the absolute blessing I had received through my life.... I distinctly remember the joy I felt while flying over a river in a single engine plane. I was just outside the cockpit of the airplane, looking down at the river winding below me. It was beautiful...I remembered flying into a cloud...This was a time when I just was having fun flying along a river and enjoying it for joy's sake. I rembered every good thing...that had ever occured in my life. I said to "God," Thank you for flying."
Then, what happened next, I was totally un-prepared for..."God" spoke to me, asked me in this voice that was neither male or female....with the most lovely words that have ever been spoken to me, " Did you learn enough about love." This was all that this being said to me but inside these words were a million sayings...a complete realignment of my whole concept of what was important. It was a staggering statement. This being told me things in these few words that I have taken 20 years to absorb and am still not even close to touching the true meaning. I get little glimpses of new knowledge as I go through my life though. I just see things differently now that I know how you are supposed to see other people. The saying of those words made me examine my life from a totally different way...through the eyes of love. I realized just how wonderful my life had been in a profound way. I saw me the way "God" saw me. I knew how much this being loved me. It was beyond comprehending. There is no comparison.
I didn't know what to say. I know for certainty, there is an almost infinite amount things to learn in this life and even more beyond the life we are living now. I quietly said, " Thank for my mother's love...and all my friends...and my family" ...and then I said, "but...I never had a wife or children." I had judged myself...My meeting before this assembly of loving beings was over. In one moment I was out of the Court Room.
I was back on a road of translucent gold. I could look up now. I could see a beautiful garden with brilliantly beautiful flowers and perfectly manicured grass. There were groomed hedges along the walls on either side and perfect trees. There was nothing dead at all in this garden. Every thing was vibrant with life. The orchestra and choir were playing their marvelous symphony and song in the background. As I looked down the road, I saw a line white of orbs of light...moving off the edge of this place I called heaven. Heaven is not round. Heaven is like a big rectangular boxy spaceship. As I came close to the edge of heaven, I saw white orbs going down, like an almost infinite string of pearls. As I went over the edge, I felt myself emerged in pitch darkness.
My return trip was almost as extraordinary as my visit with this being I spoke with. If you want to know how my return trip went... I will try to tell you when I can get the energy. I can't fully describe how loving this being was. Words are not enough...but I can assure you...that the judgement is not a bad thing...Our lives on earth and in heaven are all about learning. WE get to keep the blessings we had on earth through the Eyes of "Perfect Love." This state of becoming a light filled being should be our goal if we are going to learn all of the lessons we can learn from this life. But you get help. There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning. While I am far from perfect, at least I know what perfection is. Sometimes I want to go back...every day actually...but i am here...we are here...I hope this was helpful.......... : )