Re: Wicked pixie....
Ah, geez, Belle, I'm blushing! And I can't even claim it as true. I'm no fount of wisdom, I just had to wise up a bit to survive, like any of us. Maybe I'm just old and have more road scars to fall back on, LOLOL
Pixie, I wish I did have wise words for you right now, but the best I can think of is are all those old cliches': Just let it ride. This too shall pass. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. It can't rain all the time.
All true, however, and all bits of advice that have helped me through some really rough times. Pain, rage, anger are all things I am intimately familiar and all too comfortable with. I can tell you that life constantly changes and what seems so horrible and painful now *WILL* fade one day. Go ahead and feel the pain now, then you can accept that it happened so that you can learn from it, forgive, release the pain, and move on. Trying to mask the pain never works, it keeps coming back until you finally give in and embrace it, accept it.
I know forgiveness is hard to think about right now, but forgiveness is a gift you gift yourself, it really has nothing to do with anyone else. Forgiving is *not* approving!! You can completely disagree with what someone did or said and still forgive them for it. Forgiveness is not allowing *their* actions to influence *you* anymore - it releases all the negative power and frees *you* from the pain.
Hang in there, Pixie, things *will* get better, and you'll be better and stronger once you reach the other side.