Okay, he affects you "like no flipping other person..." I guess what you are trying to figure out is if YOU affect him in the same way and if he is giving you his best. Still don't know the answer to that, but the fact that you have been "dancing" for years in suspect. If you two have the same feelings for eachother, wouldn't it be obvious by now? Shouldn't it be obvious by now? Sorry, I am not more help. Good luck.