Hate to say it, but it's the cussing and the complaining that did you in. HAHA!!
NO seriously, we all know what your going through. I don't know if there's anyone on this forum who hasn't felt depressed and or suffered because of health problems. We just take a different approach to getting help.
Maybe be a little more thoughtful in how you word your feelings, but of course don't think you've got to live by any 'supposed' CZ standards of expressing yourself. Part of growing up I guess.
It's best to keep the cussing to a minimum on an open forum though!