In my work as a hypnotist I work for self-awareness exactly like what S
has posted here -- it is the dawn of empowerment on the issue. The
subconscious mind has created an enforcer to cause you to choose between
self-destructive behavior and life itself. Chances are you had many hints
and warnings before that, but because your body was letting you get away
with it, you didn't need to make the choice to do the lifestyle changes.
So your body said enough is enough, get with the program.
Remember that your body is your subconscious mind. As long as you need
enforcement to keep you on the straight and narrow, the diabetes will
remain. As Awtar said, you can't really get rid of an ally that's keeping
you alive. When my clients have situations such as this we work at meeting
the underlying need in some other, healthier way so the destructive
condition (in this case the diabetes) is no longer needed. People who have
done wrong in the past do eventually get off probation when they learn to
follow the rules without enforcers.
So you have to look at the benefit that diabetes is providing you, and it is
a very, very important one. Then you do some searching within and discover
what you would need to accomplish that same goal without the diabetes.
What feelings are lacking? What feelings exist in excess? What would you need
to release? What would you need to incorporate? Start there, and you will
find that the answers are easier to come by than you may think.