you are entitled to be here as much as everyone else. This particular forum I have really come to enjoy, due to people are willing to help and answer questions and are not trying to 'control', so it appears.
You are here to learn...from people who Know, who Experience, who are Willing to Share. Therefore, you Belong here, as long as you Desire to be here.
Thank you for sharing your story and experiences. You are a brave and strong woman!
May God continue to shine His favor on you (even though some may say it doesn't sound like it yet as you said you are a "miracle", so He must have).