Try to be nice to yourself. One thing I know - I would never treat others the way I treat myself. And if I treat myself poorly, others know they can too. Intuitively. You are articulate and express yourself well to us. When we are engaged with an abuser, we never know how they will react. Will they respond nicely or will they blow? This creates the confusing believe that we cannot communicate well. The truth is, THEY do not communicate well. Think about it. It is frightening to carry on a conversation with a short-tempered person. You may get great tolerance one minute, and have your head handed to you the next. You articulate fine, you just have some a__holes around you right now that are confusing you !!!