Okay, yes, I know what you are all saying,and you are right. I know I am stressed and feel very negative. I used to be so positive. Most of the things you all said were things I have already looked into. I've looked into the Bates method; even still try some of the methods to this day, the rest costs money and I cannot afford to buy it. I practice yoga, and find it very hard anymore to feel less tense. Last night I just could not ease the tension. I was trying to fall asleep and I could just feel my face cinching up every few minutes as I tried to drift off. Also I have looked into moving out of the country for a bit for some peace or a different job, and you have to have money to move to another country. I've looked into teaching jobs and other things that I could possibly do there also. How were you able to leave? I also get out a lot in the sun. Its not like I stay inside and do nothing. I'm not a hermit or anything. Believe me, I am a very active person. I am always looking in the weekend papers for new things to do (a lot of them costs money), I play in a band, I work, I am applying for jobs like crazy, but to no avail. I have seen the Laws of Attraction, and I have Tony Robbins tapes. After a while, I think I just began to ask myself, what's it all for. If I had to do it all over again. I would have never went to college. Its overrated and it hasn't gotten me anywhere. Just sucked many dollars out of my pocket, and now I feel like I am a slave to creditors. In this world, its all who ya know. And its not like I came from a well-to-do family. Nepotism runs high in this world, and it ain't no different for me. I appreciate everyone's comments though. I just wanted to know if there were others out there who experienced similar crazy thoughts, because I am starting to hate everything around me. That's just how I feel. Hopefully I can let go of some of these things in the future.