You would think that I would quit after having my throat operated on and the dr telling me that if I did not quit, that eventually I would lose my voice box. And one of my childhood buddies died at 55 from throat cancer. And that is not counting the amount of money we spent just for the smokes. Non of that mattered enough.
My wife's father lived with us for the last couple of years of his life and when he passed on the pain was tough. I loved him like a father. Wife and I decided to keep busy we would remodel the house. Even though the living room was painted white 3 years earlier, when we removed a picture frame, the spot was still white and the rest of the wall was beige (becoming brown). That is when we started talking about quitting. We knew there would be some tense moments, but agreed to not take anything personally for a few weeks. Lots of heated discussions during that time and simply begging the other one to light up a cigarette and pass it over. Stubborness sure helped.
Sooner or later you will find something. Just keep looking. In our case, we are both stubborn and refuse to let the other win. Frankly, neither of us thought that either one could quit.
You gotta know that me and a lot of other folks are pulling for you.