I am new here but want to say that you are in my prayers and thoughts. I know how hard it must be for you as a mother. I can not imagine what you are going through right now. But just know that I will pray for you. I can't imagine what my mom goes through with my bipolar illness. She is an angel and I know you must be one too. You love your son enough to care about his well being and not be selfish and think only of yourself. I am sure you have giving up years along with hours without sleep to be at his side to comfort him. You are a great mom. You have had to go through what no mother should ever have to face. You are one strong angel. God put you here for a reason. To always love him. No matter what. and when the time comes to make that hard decision. I will pray for you sweetheart.
My heart goes out to you and your son. Many prayers and much love,