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Re: does anger bind?? by rygar. ..... Relationship Support Forum

Date:   5/6/2008 7:45:04 PM ( 13 years ago ago)
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actually...true intimacy is what I am looking for though in the past I always thought
it revolved around sex or afterwards ie;holding them and talking lol.

I noticed that when were being intimate,this girl as well as my ex-
though I was aware of it taking place I was kinda lost in how to react to it,
and I just kinda held them as we were talking,I felt 'close' to them
and we did share those moments together,though I felt strong emotions I did
feel a sort of disconnection in a way,like I was still somewhat distant..
though there.

It's the same though alot more subtle then passionate sex ...

I know I have anger issues but alot of it revolves around fear,actual
fear of losing them,either to someone else or them just disappearing one day.

I am not afraid per say to be alone but more so of sheer abandonment,
being that I have been abandoned alot in the past,be it friends,lovers,
girlfriends etc. and it wasn't always my wrong doing but circumstances,
life and shit just happening..I know,toughen up!~

make it through but how you do that when one hasn't ever gotten over that

Now it's like I am always the one who calls it quits FIRST,as much as it
may hurt me I do it either consciously or sub-consciously.


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