In quickly looking over your posting history and seeing the extent to which your adrenal functioning is compromised... another possibility for your depression and any suicidal ideation would be seizure activity. Have a look at the following...
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Complex partial seizures and depression.
Greenlee BA, Ferrell RB, Kauffman CI, McAllister TW.
Department of Psychiatry, Dartmouth Medical School, Dartmouth-Hitchcock Medical Center, One Medical Center Drive, Lebanon, NH 03756, USA.
A long-recognized assoc ... [Video Embedded Here]
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