- New plan... by ren
13 y
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Blog: Nursing in the Raw
Gosh these last few days have been emotional hell for me. Food addiction has taken a total strangle hold on me and really fueling the fire of depression. It's a vicious circle. I get sad about money, having to work so much, why my husband doesn't help around the house,etc.etc.etc. and I eat. Eat eat eat. I'm so insecure about everything that I eat so late at night, like just now. No reason to eat two spoonfuls of light sour cream and a little cranberry sauce. I'm admitting this because I'm at once embarassed and mortified that I've been eating to comfort myself. Today I was really depressed almost to the point of considering suicide and am glad I didn't have to work today. Not that I'd consider suicide for real but stranager things have happened.
Tomorrow I'm going to do a one day green smoothie feast. I'm taking it one day at a time but my goal is to do this fast for a week to two weeks with water fasting on my days off (I want to water fast next weekend). I really need to make a break in the food addiction. It's going to destroy my life!
Sunday food plan:
black coffee: reg and decaf no cream, protein powder or sugar and green smoothies as much as I want.
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ren
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- Re: New plan... by mariposa azul
13 y
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Ren,
I know the rollercoaster of life, eating for comfort, and
not feeling like yourself can just really make you feel
plain sucky! Take your strenght & courage back sister!
I've read many of your posts these past couple of years
& I always took something positive from what you had to
say to others. You've been the voice of support for a lot of
folks out there in the curezone family! Be that friend to you!
I am sure there are other silent ones like me in curezone that care!
No more dark mindless suicide ramblings(I know intentions
were not there) but it is still a dark place to be.
Now go get it- get your Ren back girl!
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mariposa azul
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13 y
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