- Day 11 by amyk1313
17 y
3,056 4 Messages Shown
Blog: 30 day Juice Fast
I'm so over this... i haven't lost anything now for 2 days.. my body seems to be stalling. I would do the water fast but I"M STARVING!!! I'm get winded so fast that I'm concerned something about my fasting isn't right. I don't feel cleansing.. I feel starved.. this doesnt 'feel healthy.. it feels like an eating disorder. If i was gong through head aches, and zits, and weird smells, and rollar coaster of emotions and weight loss and all these things you hear happens during fasting, then I'd think this was working..but at this point I think my body is just thinking this is a nother diet and its holding on to eerything.. I'm not sure what to do... i have alot of anger that is in the pit of my stomach and i'm not sure why. i'm not sure if i'm angry at myself for doing this (if that is the case then i'm thinking about this wrong inernally) or if its anger that is surfacing becuase i have more time to think about things. I'll admit that my mind is constantly on finances and weight loss and a little bit of work.. i'm just so angry... its weird.. prehaps i'm angry that i'm not losing hte weight htat i want to be. I'm on day 11, and I'm only down 8 lbs... i should be down 11.. i won't make my goal weight this week.. and i might also be angry that i have to stop this early for my mom to come into town. if its anger about those things, its a way over reaction... it feels to imbedded to be be those things tho.. it almost feels like old anger.. if that makes any sense at all.
SW 214
Fast-SW 181
CW 173
Fast-GW 151
GW - 115
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- some thoughts by ren
17 y
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| It's good you are keeping a journal online. Sounds like some old anger issues are coming out which happens with fasting. I think what you are experiencing is completely NORMAL during the fasting process. I've only fasted ten days at a time and that happened once because I have a fast paced job. I congratulate you on going for 30 days. Once you get over this hump it will be smooth sailing. I suggest looking up some of somer's posts. She's a veteran faster.
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- Whoa! by katiemarie
17 y
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Amy,
I was so disturbed by your post about feeling starved and feeling like you have an eating disorder. Have you taken some time to really be alone and think about why you're doing this fast? If you really feel like the fast isn't for you then break it with some fruit or veggies. Fasting isn't for everyone. Weight loss is weird during the fast. You've read other people's blogs I'm sure and the weight loss can come off one pound at a time or three at a time and it's very slow for some people. Best of luck to you in whatever you choice you make.
-Kate
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- Re: Whoa! by amyk1313
17 y
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Thanks for responding and keeping in touch. I guess its just hard when I feel alone in the struggle and throuhg th ehard times, at least there is a reward.. or supposed to be.. so when i'm not seeing the weight loss.. it just feels like its alot of struggle for nothing. There's nothing other than weight loss that feels better, or look different..but I've also had 29 years of being toxic so I suppose I shouldn't expect to be 'pured' in 12 days.
I've committed to staying on the fast today... not sure about tommarow but I can commit to today.
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