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Choosing Everything

If You’re Going to Choose Something, Why Not Choose Everything

Date: 8/9/2005 12:01:56 AM ( 21 y ) ... viewed 3613 times

One night last week when I was down the shore, I decided to have a conversation with God. It was late and everyone else had already gone to bed. I walked out onto the deck and stared up into the sky. I could see hundreds and thousands of stars twinkling away. There was a heck of a lot more up there than I am used to. With all the light pollution in my area, you can only see the brightest of stars. So it is pretty much a treat when I can get away from all those disruptive lights and see the true beauty of the night sky.

I started off the conversation by asking God to give me clarity regarding the experience I had on Monday with my sister-in-law. You can check out the Present Phobias/Past Lives blog for that story. Anyway, I was looking for help with some of the answers and who better to ask but God. I asked God to help me to understand the purpose of this experience and to help me release whatever needed to be released. I then figured that while I was at it, I might as well go down the laundry list of other things I was ready to release. That night I chose to release and let go of all those limiting thoughts, judgments and fears that have held me back from being the person I now choose to be. And that is a person who is one within himself, with God and all things.

I then proceeded to ask God to help me manifest within this present lifetime everything and anything that would be for my highest good and highest healing. Before God I chose to create joy, happiness, love, health, abundance and anything else I could think of in the moment and I asked for God’s assistance in manifesting them in my life. I decided that if I was going to do this right, I might as well ask for the whole shebang. When I was done going through all of this and made my intentions clear, I thanked God for making all of these things possible. As the saying goes, ask and you shall receive. So I thanked God for giving unto me and I promised that I would receive. For it is important to remember that God is always giving to us, it is only a question of whether we are willing to receive.

Just at the moment I finished thanking God, I saw up in the sky a star shooting across the sky. The timing was amazing. It truly was a sign that God was there with me and heard everything I had to say. The shooting star reminded me of Tomorrow’s God by Neale Donald Walsh. During the conversation he had with God as retold in this book, God tells him a story about a distraught women who one night goes out onto her balcony practically in tears and asks God for a sign of his existence. Just then she sees a shooting star. God’s question to Mr. Walsh was whether God made that star go across the sky or was God that star shooting across the sky. I definitely believe that God was the star in that story and it was God that night I was on the deck. This experience filled me with tremendous joy, happiness and fulfillment. I felt at peace even in the midst of the chaos of the previous day.

The next day when I woke up I still had the memory of that night in my mind. I began to marvel at the thought that I had never really asked God for everything. I never really chose to manifest everything I have ever dreamed possible and even those things that I never thought possible. It seems to me that most of us are taught to think small and if we don’t think small then we try not to dream too big. I imagine that most of us have deeply buried within the idea that we don’t deserve to have everything we dream about. Somehow we think we are not worthy. Whenever I hear that word worthy it draws me back to a phrase that I had memorized through constant repetition in church. It goes, “Lord I am no worthy, but only say the word and I shall be healed.” Why? Why aren’t we worthy? Of course the answer I would give is that the only reason we aren’t worthy is because we think we aren’t. God never told us this; we are the ones who convinced ourselves of our own inherent lack of worth. The only thing that limits me is me. That is the truth.

Now that I have a greater understanding of this truth, I have decided that any time I ask for anything I am now going to ask for everything. Why not? This truly is our birthright. If I have free will, then I now use my free will will to make a conscious choice to manifest within my life all of my wildest dreams. This isn’t to say that there will not be times when I or anyone else will forget this fact. I know that there is still work to be done within me and there is more to be released. But I think this is true of everyone on the journey. We all will have our darker moments when we resist the light of truth and the power of God. But only through these troubled spots or bumps in the road can we understand or be reminded of our power and desire to be in greater union with God. The important point is to always go forward and move closer and closer to the goal of oneness. And for me, I think it was an important step to be in a place where I thought I was worthy enough to ask for and choose everything.

And so my advice to everyone else would be: If you’re going to choose something, why not choose everything.

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