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Tracey
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Hi Headcase!
Sorry it took me so long to get to you...
So...you're a White Resonant World-Bridger...
It sounds like you've done a fair amount of research and you've probably read everything I've posted about White World-Bridger on curezone, right? (if not let me know)
You say: I have been trying to fulfill my destiny as a Worldbridger to die all this year but so far i haven't been able to make my behavioural changes keep up with my mental changes. I don't know whether the death should come suddenly or gradually.
I do believe that with White World-Bridger the Death comes oh so gradually. It's not the sudden crazy unexpected Death of Blue Storm or anything....it's much more gentle...less electric. And instead of the Death/Rebirth that is associated with Blue Storm and major Transformations, I see White World-Bridgers as simply releasing and letting go of control...surrendering to the Perfection of the larger pattern of your SELF...it is very quiet...
Have you read this?
With White World-Bridger you are being asked to release and surrender. Surrender is the opposite of giving up. It is freeing yourself from the desire to be in control, letting go of how you think things SHOULD be. Surrender is freedom. You are being invited to release yourself from the bondage of preconceived action, to let everything be all right as it is, so that you can live a more inspired life in the moment!
You are being asked to take action in the process of surrender and release. You are requested to die a symbolic death, to surrender your limiting beliefs. Symbolic death unveils the self by cutting away the outgrown parts of yourself that no longer serve you. In such death, ego structures fall away to reveal the garden of the true self. Look for new ways of being, new people, new ideas, and new directions that will move into the vacuum created through surrender and release. Like yeast, surrender enlivens and empowers you to experience more of life's fullness.
Holding on to past patterns and grievances only limits the possibilities. Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Let go. Surrender whatever limits you. Face whatever you are resisting. In the experience of any loss, it is never too late to complete. Through your willingness to walk in the dark forest, insights and revelations will naturally emerge.
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Have you read that before? Does it make sense?
Interesting that from your birthday 2003 until your birthday 2004 you were in a Red Self-Existing Dragon year. Self-Existing is Tone 4 and is all about your Structure and the Form you've given your Life AND your Thoughts/Beliefs (that, in turn, create your life!)....so if we synthesize that with Red Dragon symbolism then this last year may have been about looking around and seeing and feeling what Structures you've created in your life: job, relationship, living arrangements etc...and, if you don't like what you see being willing to change the things you don't like and Trust (red dragon) that you will always be supported no matter what you do.
Next year (actually you will start to feel the new energy coming in 3 months prior to your birthday so...March 23rd you may have started to feel a difference. What happens is that these last three months are about finishing up the Red Self-Existing Dragon TRUST , giving/receiving, changing any Structures or Forms you've created etc.....while starting to feel something new come in. Main thing is to finish up the old - but it's exciting when you feel a new energy come in. Watch for interesting 'Theme year' dreams around May 23rd...)
Anyway...you're about to enter your White Overtone World-Bridger year! So this is cool. You will be your SELF. (not the tone, though) So, perhaps you weren't meant to truly Surrender, Release and Forgive this year.....there will be plenty of time for that next year! Overtone is Tone 5...which means that you are moving into a year that will have you build a super-solid Foundation of Self! This is great....your White World-Bridger self will fully exist.....and the surrender and death that you are hoping for will BE.
How did your Gap day go on April 4th??
Oh yeah...Resonant Tone 7:
MYSTICAL POWER
Qualities: mystical alignment, self-acceptance, technician of the sacred, direct connection with the Source.
Seven is the ray of Mystical Power, the foundation of the individual slef freed within the two points of polarity. Your soul calls forth your ability to decode the hidden mysteries. (AH! This mimics your Scoprio Moon & Uranus & Part of Fortune) Claim your mystical wisdom by acknowledging your personal relationshp to the Source. Catalyze the mystical force of your seven chakras to propel you to the region of divine illumination.
The consciousness of seven puts theory to the test, asking for practical application of your mystical power. As a technician of the sacred, you integrate the polarity of worlds into an operant foundation. You wear the seven-pointed star, symbol of the master artisan. Combine your feelings and intellect to transmute matter into mystical consciousness. Standing in simple self-acceptance, craft a light body from the column of light in your spine. Open your lotus to the world. YOU are the gift. Accept yourself unconditionally. Freed from the need for outside confirmation, stand open to your full mystical power. Align with the spinning mystery of the seven: seven chakras, seven planets, seven rays, seven steps of the pyramid - the seven stages of consciousness conjoined.
**All the excerpts taken from the book The Mayan Oracle - contact Ariel, the author below for a signed book! Tell her Tracey sent you!**(I don't receive anything - but I'd love it if she knew that I was sending business her way!) Her email is located on the linked page below.**
If you're still out there, we can discuss some more! I just love the mayan stuff - still discovering lots. It correlates soooo well to Western Astrology too - it's pretty mind-blowing.
Check my site in the future...I'm going to have a big Mayan Astrology section: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com
love Tracey
The Mayan Oracle - signed by Ariel
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- Edited headcase
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This is a reply to # 137,848n/t ©†ƒ……•™¼‡_Original_Message_¾€š½ž¢«»¬ï°©
You're dead on with most of this. I'd acknowledge you have some sort of power if someone asked me. I think part of my skepticism with astrology is I always have this vision of the average astrology user being desperate, and alone, and sometimes just old...and it's like ok so even if it's true it doesn't help people cause look at what a mess the believer's lives are always in. I know that's a negative stereotype but it's just what I've grown up thinking. But look at me, I only start considering this stuff when my life is about as messed up as it's ever been. I don't know what to think but a reading like this is about the closest anythings come to making me a believer.
I didn't really think March 23rd was an epiphany but I remember it vaguely. I looked in my journal and it did seem to be an unusually good day for me.....
"The jesus mark came off my right hand today. Saw a deer crossing the road on the way back from the Y. My bicycle got a flat tire right at the end. Went to a job interview. Practiced scales. Accomplished everything I should have and yet was not acting proud."
The jesus mark is what I'd been referring to as these ugly brown callouses in the exact same spot in the palms of my hands I'd gotten after a 100 mile bike trip I'd made three weeks earlier. The weirdest thing is that this subcutaneous sore wasn't fading at all, and I was worried it'd be somehow permanent and then suddenly this day the callous just sort of peeled itself off and it was almost back to normal.
I've noticed deer always come into my field of view on significant days for me. It's strange.
The job interview was a hit and I'm working it now. It's my first serious fulltime employment not as an intern. So far the job's got some ups, but it's got some downs too so I'm in strife about it.
much love,
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- also headcase
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This is a reply to # 139,206yeah they did, it's all in the past now though, i don't beleive in curses
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First off I forgot to thank you in the last response, so I don't know how long each reading takes you but it was worth the wait and much longer. Thank you.
Second I forgot to answer your other questions. I have read the basic description of White World-Bridger before. The strange thing for me is that I guess one of the main if not the primary problem with my life is that I need more self discipline which sounds like the opposite of "letting go of need to control." I know there's a deeper level of understanding of "letting go of need to control" but it's tough for me to fully conceptualize what that means, of how I try to control in the Tzolkin sense. I know I try to control people and situations around me in numerous negative ways but I've got to fix them all.
April 4th was a good day. Nature did a really freaky weather turnaround on me which alone would've made me stop and notice. I learned some good lessons that day. I haven't mastered myself yet though. Still just trying to get used to the sudden energy drain of my new job. When I run for a while eventually the tiredness gets left behind and the energy seems to come out of thin air to me. I know this is what I've got to do in life, sustain it for just a while, and the tiredness will fall behind.
- Re: also Tracey
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This is a reply to # 139,207Yeah...perhaps the 'let go of control' thing will become clearer. I do see a 'restricted action' thing going on in your Western astrology chart...and it's ruled by Virgo...so perhaps you're too critical of your Self (which may sometimes come out as being critical of others, too)...hmmm....
I have to run now!
Oh yeah, Alison (link below) just went through a White World-Bridger year and she has great thing to say about it!
Take a look...
love TWhite World-Bridger Year experience
- Re: also Tracey
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- Re: ok Tracey
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This is a reply to # 139,206Hi Headcase!
I hear ya' on the icky feelings about Astrologers! I only had my head blown open via Astrology at the end of 1998. Before that I, too, thought that astrologers were these creepy older people with problems and no passion (kinda weak). Funny the ideas we get eh?!
Well I'm glad I've helped turn around that old idea. (it's good to change. Change = Growth!)
I can't quite tell if you're a boy or a girl...? Funny how that sometimes happens on the internet...
The way you're so aware makes me think you're female - but you never know!
Deer! Ah...such gentle beautiful creatures. I feel that, if you're coming across them often that the message is that you need to reveal that aspect of yourself: your Gentle nature...
Hey...do you know the time and place you were born? I have an idea...
This might sound Greek to you right now, but I do this interesting Overlay thing with Mayan and Western astrology - if I know your time I can see what you have in your 8th house (Blue Hand is representative of the Deer - and it happens to rule your 8th house....so I want to see what the message is there!)
What kind of intern?
love T- Re: ok headcase
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This is a reply to # 139,208n/t ©†ƒ……•™¼‡_Original_Message_¾€š½ž¢«»¬ï°©
I'm male but I'm not offended cause I definitely have some effeminate qualities and I stopped caring what people think about that a while ago.
My birth certificate says 5:00 am. I actually was trying to research this recently to see whether this was just before or just after dawn on this day because of something I read where if you're born before dawn then the previous day's glyph is really the right glyph for you. I don't know because it depends on whether this is the Daylight Savings adjusted time. If so then I was born before dawn and I'm not really a world-bridger but that glyph seems to fit me really well. I don't want to say exactly where I was born cause of internet paranoia but it was near New York City. I'd be very interested in any further stuff you can say.
I'm working in a garden center. The work's ok but the boss is a hard-ss.
- Re: ok Tracey
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This is a reply to # 139,210Headcase...
Wow! Well that is GREAT that you're a guy. (we need more self-aware guys!) Funny, it seems that the more self-aware men seem to have their Sun sign in a yin (female) sign (earth or water) - you're a Cancer so that fits right in...Being in touch with your Inner Female (venus) is excellent....nice balance.
I'd really go with the day you were born....even if one was born at 1am I'd still go with the day.
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With your Western chart I can see the difficulty you've been going through! It's the crumbling of old structures (ah...doesn't this mirror your Red Self-Existing Dragon year?)...and crumbling the WAY you take action...and with whom (love/sexually - wise) you like (venus) and how you get what/who you like (mars). These Pluto transits can feel soooo heavy...but, having been through them myself, my advice is to totally let go of who and what you think you are an let Pluto do it's transformation number on you. The problem only comes when you hold on toooo tightly. Then you break. Bending and transforming....just go with it.
Interestingly enough this Transformation (of your fear and feelings of limitation, too!) will last well into 2005....mirroring your next White Overtone World-Bridger year! As soon as you let go and just go with the flow of changes the easier it will be...then it can be quite a fascinating ride of discovery and change...Your Spiritual Beliefs are changing at the deepest level too.
This Transit is actually activating the most challenging part of your chart - a T-square that includes Venus in Gemini (who and what you like/value), Neptune in Sagittarius (spiritual Idealism) and Mars/Saturn in Virgo (self criticalness, feeling like you're restricted in your actions...and you might even feel a bit restricted sexually...?) Pluto is Transforming the whole setup! This looks to me like the main reason you incarnated as YOU in this lifetime...so that you could transform all these different aspects within yourself once and for all! It's a 2 1/2 year transit in total and you would have felt it stirring (affecting your Relationships and Values) at the very beginning of 2003.
I'm feeling a little pooped so I may not have been as clear as I would have liked to be - sorry about that.
That's it for now!
love T
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This is a reply to # 139,211I quit my new job today.
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Thanks for the additional reading.
I quit my new job today. I zoned out for a few minutes and my boss called me up to his office for another lecture and it was one more than I could take.
Since 2003 started my life's turned really intense. I've managed to abandon some bad attitudes but mostly I keep screwing up good situations that I fall into and learning these lessons of different types but they're all at a really heavy cost it seems. I'm wore out and I'm not excited for whatever miserable thing is next.
I'm going to keep trying to change in positive ways. I'm gonna make a demo program of an idea I've had for a while over the next few days (since I guess I'll have some free time :P ). Something involving testing Astrology statistically. I would love to get any feedback when I've got it working.
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This is a reply to # 137,848I am a White Overtone World Bridger and I wanted to respond about the issue of the 'death'. I experienced this almost 10 years ago and it was profound.
Let me explain, the 4-5 years prior to the 'death' were full of anxiety along with the awareness that I was extremely unfulfilled. I went into a deep and prolonged Depression (which was not a Depression at all but an intense inner desire to change).I cut myself off by degrees from my life and everything within it, yet I felt I was making a positive choice. I moved to a secluded house in the countryside and spent a snow-bound winter indoors, freezing, broke and hungry. I cried every day for 6 solid months. I now understand, it was a great purging.
Now, anyone reading this would be forgiven for thinking that I was going mental, but all the while I felt powerfully driven by something basic and fecund. I 'needed' to retreat to heal, almost like an intensive deconstruction was in progress and I felt a tremendous primal urge to facilitate that healing.
Then, one random day, I decided to give up completely. That was it, I wasn't going any further with this life and all its suffocating boundaries. A clarity came over me and I 'decided' to die. I never questioned it, I never feared it and I never thought it was a strange thing to accept or invite. That was the exact moment my life completely transformed.
I had waking vision, I have since learned that this is called a hypnagogic vision(my first of 4 to date!). I saw a dark figure enter the room in a beautiful long black robe, his head was covered. He stood in the room very near to me and I instantly felt a real love and peace emanate from him. He was like someone I had once known and my soul leapt with happiness that he came to see me again. It was best described as 'bliss'.
I surrendered my life to him there and then and willed him to take me with him. I remember feeling that I was going home. At no point were there any negative reactions towards this event as it was happening. I felt him draw 'a' life from my body and then, in what seemed like hours later, he left. I was ecstatic.
I believe the life he drew from my body that day was the life I had previously lived and he simply cleared it out of the way so my new life could take over. I am literally a different person, my tastes and likes are vastly different. I can hand on heart say that I was only born the day I 'died'.
My advice to any White Overtone World Bridger who is seeking their 'death' is to first acknowledge that your current life is too small for your big self. Accept that you might become radically changed by the event and therefore you may have to go to great lengths to achieve it. One thing I know about White Overtone World Bridgers is that they love challenges and can be defiant if someone tries to hold them back (although, ironically, you may not believe that right now). Embrace that and release your old life.
Good luck to all on this unique and beautiful journey.
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- Edited headcase
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