I know about how "soon" appears to souls... In the background of timelessness it is but a moment.. but to our broken hearted bodies below... soon can never be soon enough...
and still...

I think when I came back from the other side...
I felt so small... so little of me was left that I would
want to give to the light as my love offering...
the moments from my life that I could add to who and what love
was... is...

I had spent most of my life....up to that time of my NDE... doing things that were not going to survive ... this life... They died when I died...cast aside... forgotten by love... But even now...far from getting all of my life into my next life-review... since that horrible wonderful day... I did
at least "get" that if we limit who we will love... we limit the
contacts we will have with other souls... on the other side... and forever is a long time.... but beyond forever... and ever... and evermore... Our thoughts on the other side only go to places we let them go so if we loved bunches in this 3D world it is an excellent frame of reference for going on to higher schools of love beyond the tears and pain... into the next world... worlds... That is the reason why souls keep falling over and over... and over until... that day when we can finally say... enough of pain... and be still... finally arriving at love is the only way... and although to my soul... coaxing my body with it will all be okay very "soon..." this heart of mine keep saying it is broken enough... but my soul... my mean ole soul... knows... if I do not get that final lesson of love strong enough to avoid the temptation to fall again... that my soul will indeed fall... so the burden goes on... and still... not soon enough in my humble opinion... there will be an end... to the heartache and pain... and only the sum of all love will remain...

love, light, and gentle moments of loving kindness to you forever and beyond forever... let us meet there one fine day...

rudi

Post NDE, I rarely use a capital H for identifying the light
I met on the other side. I did sense that the light had the
very best qualities of the best mommy and the best daddy all
combined... so it was not really what I felt... Imagine if every
best daddy act of love and add to it every act of mommy love...
then throw in every moment of childlike awe... and that is the
light to me...

I had a near death experience and met 2 aspects of God. The first was a being of light who was like the best aspects of both male and female... The best mommy and the best daddy ever. Jesus, from the Christian tradition, called him Abba (Αββα)‎ Father that means daddy as opposed to a more formal father but as our Catholic friend above answered Jesus has also referred to God as the feminine searching for her lost coin(children).

I found the being in heaven to be much more feminine than the masculine being I met on my way back to my body. Just outside the atmosphere I met a being with a brassy face, burning red eyes, beard, staff, star charts and all kids of scrolls. I believe this is the aspect of God that most masculine religions pray to and who Jesus told the religious people of his day that they prayed to a devil(the accuser). I sensed that aspect of God he was definitely masculine.

When Jesus calls God the father of lights, I know he was not referring to a masculine being but rather the positive masculine aspect of the Light many meet in Near Death Experiences. I met that aspect but I also met the feminine aspect that could only see my love. Imagine a mother whose child is on death row for murder... She says he could not have done it. He was never that way... because she does not see him that way... while the father is more concerned with justice, and getting his son off the streets so he does not ruin his father's good name.

I met both aspects in my NDE but I want to tell you that when I die again, I would much rather meet the femenine aspect of God than the masculine...

rudi

I think I have had more than one near death experience but the one I most remember (which isnt much) goes like this: after being killed I was in this kinda foggy misty very light kinda place. The first thought I remember thinking when I realized I was dead was "I don't think my mom is gonna like this." Then my thoughts became preoccupied w/my immediate family and I wondered if anyone wld find my body and if I wld be considered missing and wld my family ever know what happened to me.

The next thing I remember I was with God. I dont know how else to describe God other than safe and warm. Being w/God felt/feels to me like being a baby wrapped in warm loving arms.

The next part was kinda like a review/summary of past/present/future events. I was reminded of my purpose/goal and went back to complete it. Describing this part is hard -- my sentences are like metaphors. The experience was more like being wrapped up in warm loving arms outside of time being reminded of all kinds of stuff.

When I got back to my body, it was years before I remembered anything. Yet the direction my life took was (imo) very much influenced by the event. I had a spiritual renaissance. I became very interested in creation and endtimes stories, reincarnation, and the way the world really works.

Not nearly as descriptive as Rudi's experience (which is fascinating) but it is what it is. I wld like to hear other's experiences as well.

If I repeat myself, know it is not my intention,,, but I just wanted to tell you a few small parts of the personality of the light I met in my NDE... The light does not hold grudges. The light recognized that quality in me. I had all kinds of brainwashing before my NDE but I am
not talking about how I was programmed to hate on people not like me... I am talking about when someone hurt me or dissed me. I could just let it go. I would look inside myself and try to find the meaning behind why someone would want to hurt me. I think somehow those parts of me gave me some type of spiritual advantage over those who can stay angry for long periods of time.

I was all kinds of goofy and goofed up growing up but I could just do cool things because I didn't
know better. I could ride a motorcycle through the air and it was like an extension of my body. I flew airplanes solo when I was 15. I prayed daily. But I was living in a bubble of what was a type of nationalist stereotype. If I had not died, I am certain I would have caused all types of harm, all the while believing I was a good person.

What I called "God" then... I only say lightly today as that word has too much villainy attributed to that name's followers... but whatever the light is by name...in
spirit the light had a way of looking beyond my follies and into the best parts of me that was not judgmental in a negative way... truly like a loving parent looks at their child who they are proud of... looking for any reason to praise them...

In my NDE, the light was looking for every opportunity to cheer me on... and I didn't have much to work with... I had spent 20 or so years of my life just running the program I was given by the world... but I did have some wonderful moments that delighted the light. My not holding grudges was one of them. My love of flying was another... but I was willing to kill the whole world to fly... but somehow the light did not see that about me. If I had not died, I may very well have let someone tell me to do something awful...and I would have done it... I had to be recalled though or I would have thought God wanted me to kill people... and it was never said but I knew by the absence of what God loved that those ideas of mine were not at all in alignment with the light I met in my NDE.

But what I am trying to say is that God created us with all of our frailties(with our agreement) and set us into motion but God could not judge and condemn us or God would have to judge God and condemn God for making us the way God made us... so what I am trying to get at is that God loved me because I judged me first... so I didn't have to go through the negative things I had done in my life review. If you want to avoid the the negative life review then you can do two things that were gifts I was given before I was ever born... Forgive quickly and judge yourself before
you judge another... and then forgive yourself... In this way you may get to see how the being of light sees you... after God judged God and forgave God... and what
this will do is allow you to move beyond the lower levels of heaven to join the great assembly of souls who could roughly be called the sum of all love. If you do hold grudges then you may be limited by your own lack of forgiveness to only be surrounded by souls who still held grudges and or those who had not forgiven themselves.

When I got back in line to go back to earth I knew I had made that trip many times before. I hope that I will keep my mind that forgives quickly so I can move on to vastly higher dimensions of higher love. I want my brain to be healed of its short memory but I would rather remain brain damaged than to lose my short memory of harm... Give love and do not forget the harm done to you but imagine if you will what it would be like if you were to live the life of the person who harmed you... What if God had given you their exact set of circumstances... would you not have done the same thing?

God is love but if your God is not just love then you may not get to participate in what I see is coming to those who will let go of their psychotic one moment and loving the next moment God. I met that higher God= The Sum of All Love who is simply love... I am only saying this now because I finally have the language to articulate it. I hope you will remember how much...whatever you want to call God.... God loves you... God loves you enough to let you take as many lifetimes as it takes to get you back... but if
you could just see how God really loves you and the very people who hurt you... through the lens of love... you could forgive yourself and others...

I try not to speak for God but if you are hanging on to a judgmental God then that might be who you meet before God forgave God... There is a better version of God though... And that God doesn't just love you... That God likes those
parts of you that struggled and failed... and got back up and tried again... I hope through your failures and faults you remember who the maker of the light that is your soul
is and hope you make that loving being of light your God...

rudi

You will not be punished for your anger you will be punished by your anger. - Gandhi

On my way back to earth, I stopped right outside the atmosphere. I saw the earth pop up where there was nothing before and then I watched as every moment passed until the earth finally exploded... I saw the ebbing and flowing of light and darkness of every soul and spirit in between... and then I saw from a stationary viewpoint outside where earth's atmosphere once was .... an emptiness for a much longer linear amount of time than the earth had existed... and then time ended....

My NDE may not look like any other NDE as my NDE is filtered through my perspectives- past-present-future. To deny one person's NDE though, over another, may be a way to ignore the lessons that might be learned from those experiences you find not true to you. I did understand that learning is a reason why we choose to fall from the side of perfect love and into a body. I can tell you for sure that my NDE was real for me like nothing else has ever been real.

It may very well be that there are enough dimensions out beyond what we know for every genuine NDE to be true to itself. I used to hear a joke where St Peter tells everyone else in heaven to be quiet when they pass the Baptists because they think they are the only one's here... and perhaps it can go further than that...it may be that if we limit what perceptions are possible on the other side... then those other perceptions are not possible for us until we do not limit those other possibilities. I for one went to a place in the light where none of the less than loving aspects of my life were allowed... I believe there is enough room beyond the veil to allow for my NDE Perspective and yours and a wide range of other perspectives... infinite less one... I hope others will tell of their experiences and through out unique perspectives learn from one another.


Rudi