my 13 year old cousin came over to spend the weekend with me, my mom went to work and and we were playing sims creating are perffect lives and then the phone started to ring and ring. in my family me and my older sister don't answer the phone because we don't use it if you want to reach us its are Cell Phone and it must be a number we know. so i thought it was unimportant until my phone started to ring and it was my grandma i answered it and she told me she was trying to get a hold of me because she told my aunt what had happened. i felt sick she promised me she wouldn't tell no one and i felt all the things she said was a lie. all those miss calls and unknown numbers were my aunt(she lives in america) , she had talked to my cousin to see what my grandmother was saying was true. my aunt then called all my female cousins confirming if it happened to them and she wanted to talk to me. but i just couldn't answer the damn phone it kept ring and ringing. my aunt had sent a text to that bad persons wife ( i refuse to call him brother)telling her of what he has done and to listen to her daughter and leave him. all this information happening with my cousin sitting next to me playing sims unaware. i waited for my mom to come home and my cousin deep in sleep to go and tell her what had happen. (finally someone did what i was to weak to do, i was happy till.) the first thing my mom did was try to get a hold of that bad person and when she couldn't she kept calling my aunt and said we were all lying. i was out raged. so i went to the bathroom locked the door and sat there for awhile. i waited a bit to head to my room and she was sitting on the stairs and she asked me to go into full detail what had happened all those years ago with me and my cousin. so i gave the exact address when it started every single detail and when i was done. she said i was lying ( i couldn't take it anymore i started to scream and i wouldn't stop i wanted her to finally hear me i told her over and over again while screaming tears and snot all over my face.) she shoved me into her dresser and told me to be quiet. and i started to scream louder and louder. my older sister grabbed me and dragged me back into her room. ( apparently my screaming woke up my cousin and everyone in the house.)my older sister heard everything every word. my mom ran into my sisters room and told my sister that my lies ruined or whole family. and that's when my sister snapped my sister started blaming her saying its all true how she warned are mother to help us, save us and she didn't lift a finger i'm not to blame it was our mom she was glad that it came out, that she doesn't care if hes dead or not. my mom ran out the room and came back with a bottle of pain killers and started screaming we killed her and started swallowing them.( i done that before swallow a bunch of pain killers and locked myself up in a room to die, i felt like garbage that day, that day was when i was 14 and he finished his visit. why i'm not dead was my older sister broke down the door to get to me and shove a tooth brush down my throat because i wasn't responding she knew something was wrong). and that is what she did shove a tooth brush down my mom throat screaming at her saying she is not the victim and she is not dealing with this bull shit. i sat in a chair in my sisters room in the dark, i felt numb so cold i didn't want to be there anymore. my sister came back into the room and grabbed my hand and told me everything was going to be okay. i told her i wanted to go back when everything felt fine good when i was truly happy when he was gone far away, that day we skipped school and sat on a park bench waiting for the libary to open in the winter snow, it was just quiet and cold and the only thing warm was the sun warming are faces. i started to scream i wanted to go back thinking the more i said it we could actually go back. she said we couldn't ( at this time my dad finally got the pills out of my mom) my cousin entered the room and asked if i was okay, i just sat there sobbing not wanting to be there i tried to go back where i was truly happy ( it was 2am ) my older sister forced my cousin to go back to bed and ripped of my jacket and shoes and made me sleep in her room. that night everything came back to haunt me in my dreams, "i will kill you". i woke up with my sister watching me she told me she was upset that last night she by accident barely touched me and my body started to lash out and the only thing stopping me was her screaming my name. the next morning i avoided my cousin he knew how dirty i was he heard everything. ( my mother was alright when the pills got out her system). my older sister told me i couldn't just avoid him, so i walked into my room and turned on my t.v and put in sims and asked him to play with me, he tried asking me questions and i refused to answer him so we played sims until his dad came to pick him up. ( my uncle his dad only haves sons so he didn't no anything so i guess my cousin must of filled him in on the weekend from hell).my mom apologized after she heard that my brother was fine and his wife ( disgusting women ) chose to stay with him and keep her daughter there. skip to 3 month later my mom is going to Jamaica tomorrow taking my little sister with her to go visit him.my older sister told my mother that if anything happens down there to our little sister that she blames her and only her.