Yeah I'm staying strong but it can get tough at times when I feel lonely.

Well for me, I got into a pretty good school. But it was out of state and in the moment right before I moved I had a panic attack and then basically ended up not going and taking the year off. Now I just go to community college. Do half of my courses online and half at school and this is working out pretty good for me. I mostly take classes at night and my classes are filled with really nice people so maybe this could be something you could try if you're worried about college college. Also I'm taking computer science, it's what I've always wanted to do and a ton of work from home opportunities that pay really well, just in case I never get better, but I feel like I will soo.