Yes it sounds like you where sexually abused as a child. You should seek help in bringing up the suppresed memories that
come out as flashbacks. I have a friend that never had the flashbacks until she was 38. It happened when she was 3 and she kept
it all locked inside for 35 years. It more or less destroyed her life both mentally and physcially. She is undergoing counciling now
and knows it may take months or years to become the person she was meant to be. Talk to your husband about it, and let him
know that if he sticks with you, he will be rewarded in the end with a very happy functional wife. Don't put it off any longer. Best of luck.

You did not say if the sex hurt or not? Many women hate sex; some because it hurts. Are you adverse to oral sex? If not, first wash your husband with soap before you give it. You might even get stimulated.

Hypno regression is probably the fastest way to get to the problem.

Dear 31460, Getting hypnosis might not be the answer to your problems; you might just be looking to find fault where there is none. I hate to touch on this subject, but it's for your mental health; have you ever had feelings for another girl? I know you love your husband, but that feeling is different then sexual attraction. Just a thought.

Good Luck

Your problem can be so complicated it is hard to comment on with so little background.
First you need to figure what has made you feel the way you do about sex.

These flashbacks might be the result of programing - on TV. You have a problem with sex....what happened in your childhood? Many people try to fix their problems by relating to what they see on the tube.

Even if something did happen in your childhood remember your memorys are the memories of, say, a five year old. Hardly a desired perspective to base a lifelong hangup. Work at NOT blocking the memorys, varify them and confront the abuser.

You are tough to have gone to bed with a dirty and nasty man for 10 years.