i think i got that kick in the ass i need sooooooooo bad....last night i was watching discovery health channel...well this did it for me....a man weighing in at a 1/2 ton...no shit folks......1000 pounds.....holy crap...... i dont want to be this man.....nothing in world is ever gonna taste that good to me to let myself go so bad...they will not have to cut my wall to get me out of the house...by the time i'm done fasting they will be able to slip me out threw a mouse hole....from my lips to gods ears.........so before i watched this i was taking the advice of some of the fasters here just taking a few days off and figure out why i wont allow myself to do this ....bump that!!!!! today is the day....mind set...body is ready for a over haul gonna jump my ass on my treadmill tonight and walk till i cant walk no more....i will drop aleast 15 befoe my x-mas party....30 lbs before my birthday....and that should put right down to my high school weight.... just seeing what this poor poor person went threw was enough for me to say hey fat ass your well on your way there as well.....so today is the day for a whole new me....and if anyone is having a hard time starting just watch next weds discovery health channel they are showing over weight teens.....sooooooooo freaking sad........anyway that is what i needed....

thank you all for being there for me...now i'm back better than before.....just watch as this fat ass turns herself into a striking 40....................i'm gonna be so dam hot people around me are gonna feel like they had a brush will hell...somebody stop me.....(kidding) well mood is great and ready...hugs to you all french and much thanks for the support...you all are wonderful