when i was younger... and married... i always had a horrific fear of being left alone... and as karma would have it... it came to pass... and i found myself completely abandoned... and totally alone... but what seemed to be my worse nightmare proved to be a blessing in disguise... for it was at this time that i began to focus of the real problem... "me"... and to learn of my true "Self"... a deeper sense of knowledge... or "knowing"... or as i like to think of it... as getting to "know" the "knower"... (none of this probably makes much sense to you)... but that ok...

what i see from what i have read of your blogs is that you have your head on pretty straight... but are very often distracted by the insanities of others... and consequently get sucked into the vortex of your own insanity of "ego"...

http://laluni.helloyou.ws/askbaba/saibabagita/

read the above while you continue with yoga... it perhaps might prove to be very insightful for you...

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seek... and you will find...
of all the others... nevermind...
the one you seek... was always there...
to help you... find life free from care...

within... your "Self" you'll find true love...
of which... you've known so little of...
so... to thine "Self" be true...
the one that you seek...
is inside of you...

lol...
;-)

and always remember...
"it's a wonderful day in the neighborhood little girl"...