you say it with such seeming ease -- lovely! I can remember being very public in a way that would have finished me prior to this sort of shift you are speaking of--

and I just kept "putting off" anxiety. Every time it arose, I would inwardly say, I'm putting it off till later...That felt both fine (to the lazy part of me) and fine to the 'knowing'part. (!) and I'd breathe freely for a few minutes. Deeply, slowly.
Get very centered and ask that Truth be the agent in charge. THat was nother great relief... burden removed.

Then even at the very last minute, right before the anxiety-provoking experience (s), I still said, "later. not now." Then, I began speaking. (it was a pretty big presentation --the sort of thing I never did before. Would never have wanted to.
And it went completely well. But this is because there was nothing being sold, outside of wellness and creativity--and empowerment of others.


I thought about this whole thing later, and realized it only went this way because every single aspect of my being's focus, was aligned with complete honesty.Whatever the 'cost'.
There was nothing to hide! and nothing to create some 'spin' out of. Such a relief.


I totally believed in every part of what I was engaged in, (and I felt as though a bubble of light was around me.) The odd (and saddening)thing is, I realized most do NOT. Believe. And they are at war within themselves for the having to lie in so mnay ways--what we call "dealing with reality".

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