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Day 7 and 8
Do do do DAAAAAHHHHH
Date: 1/29/2008 11:43:20 AM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1817 times Well well.
Day 7 sucked big giant balls. Period. I was obsessive about food all day long. I've been planning recipes and things, and have even been to grocery stores but WOW all I could think about all day was food and how I couldn't have any. If I would have broken any day, day 7 would have been it. I heard that was supposed to be behind me. Well...it would seem other people don't know my body very well, FOR SHAME!
It was so bad, that there was a moment at which I thought to myself "self, if you could harness the single minded all encompassing power of focus on ANY other thing in your life, especially things you want to accomplish, you reach your goals within days."
The Husband and I watched Catch Me If you Can (love love that movie) anyway, there was a pg sex scene that was meant to IMPLY sexual relations but was actually a room service tray bonking and spilling all over the place. All I could focus on was "THE FOOD! ROOM SERVICE! THEY'RE WASTING IT! I wonder whats in there? I SEE salad and TOAST!"
Another featured a major plot point with LdC watching a scene on television via which he was coming up with an 'idea'. He was eating popcorn. 20 minutes later, I was still thinking of the popcorn. Any number of things could, and did, happen in those twenty minutes but OH NO...all I noticed was the popcorn, seemingly in some kind of plastic cannister, which I thought odd, but maybe that was a 60s thing, and it looked awfully white. I wondered if there was butter on it. Or if it was plain. Because there was no microwave popcorn then, or white cheddar popcorn, or was there...?
It was sad and pathetic.
Needless to say, by nightfall I was capital P Pissy. I'm running out of MS and because I've cut down, far too much, I think my food obsession was precipitated by that. I'm going to get some more for the next couple of days. It just isn't worth it.
Today has been great. I woke up with the obsessive food thing gone baby gone. I think I just need some more physical activity (I do weight bearing exercise and usually walk A LOT, but with winter here, I'm not walking anywhere). So I bounced around in my hours for the last hour and a half dancing. That's my favorite exercise. Sometimes I pretend I'm in exotic locals...it's fun! Now I'm full of energy and positive as a can of .... something positive.
I'm pretty ready to be done with the cleanse. Not because I necessarily wanna cram my face with food, in fact I don't, but I'd like to have the OPTION of tasting something other than lemonade. Yes I would.
Ciao
Kiki
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